- From Aaron
Honestly, with as bizarre as our lives have been over the years, you'd think nothing would surprise us any more.
But you would be wrong.
A few days before Christmas we had some hard conversations with the leadership of Heartline and came to the conclusion that the needs and dynamics of our family were not going to allow us to invest the time that Heartline needed from us. We realized that while we love Heartline and the ministry that they do in Haiti, we were not going to be a long-term fit in the roles they needed us to play.
So, with four children and twelve 50lb bags in tow we tearfully relocated back to Texas. We are currently staying with family while I look for a job and we find a place to live.
This transition was fast and hard and full of emotions. However, we can say already that we can see the Lord's hand graciously guiding and providing for our family during this time. Our intention was to be in Haiti for at least another 18 months, but we're trusting that the Lord's plans are greater than ours.
We have been welcomed back to Texas by a loving family and supportive friends. Those funding our lives in Haiti have been understanding and encouraging as we filled them in on more details of what has happened in the last couple of weeks. We've sought out wise counsel here in the states to help us make these decisions and figure out how to move forward.
Although this was unexpected by us, we trust that God is in control. Everything feels up in the air. Not much feels very stable right now. We feel like we should be completely overwhelmed. Yet what we feel is peace. This equally perplexes and comforts us.
Right now we covet your prayers as we try to make a lot of very big decisions very quickly. I am looking for jobs which will determine where we live. Today I put on fancy clothes and handed in a job application. Heather mocked me, then wished me luck. We will need to find a new house, get our kids in school, and begin to settle back into the routine of life in this country. God's words about the poor, the least of these, and specifically our time in Haiti have changed us forever. We are eager to pour our lives out for the weak, the hurt, and the forgotten even if our address has changed. We're asking God what that looks like from here.
Heather's words from the blog the other day most accurately express where we find ourselves at this point.
We find ourselves filled with hope when we consider all the new this year will hold for us and so many of the people we know and love. We trust all the new to a God who is bent on giving good even to people who rarely deserve it, who says there's really nothing new under the sun, and who wrote the pages of this coming year long before the world began. We sit here staring at the very first page of the chapter titled "2012" eager to read what God has lovingly penned for each of us.
Coming home we found that many of the people we love are in a season of transition, facing many unknowns this year. We were met by friends and family members who are asking God for faith of their own, seeking wisdom, and fighting to trust God as they navigate through the unknown. While our circumstances selfishly seem the most pressing to us, we are reminded that this same story of unexpected events, pain, peace, struggle, the realization that we could have done things differently in retrospect, pushing on, trying to learn from mistakes, extending grace, forgiving, crying, healing, and finding God in all of it - this is the story that belongs to each of us. This is life, and we're all in this thing together learning how to live it.
We hope you know how thankful we are for each of you who sit here with us year after year. Heather and I have grieved this decision, are now at peace, and are ready to move on, and embrace this unpredictable life.